Thank you so very much for all the kind words my friends, they really mean a lot to me and my family.
We've spend Christmas eve at my brother's place, trying to find a bit of distraction, when we're at home, we are constantly confronted with the emptiness, and at the moment it's better for us to get away from it from time to time.
One of these days I'm going to try and answer some of the reactions here, when I'm behind my laptop again, at the moment I'm lying in bed, using my tablet and I'm not really good at typing with this thing. Normally I would get behind my laptop when everybody else went to sleep, than it was just me and Coby downstairs, and at the moment, I don't want to sit downstairs alone, because I just know I'll be in pain, I guess it will take some time ...
Once again a big thank you to all of you, you guys are the best
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